It’s been a pretty intense past few days for me. It’s something I’ll probably explain in more detail sometime down the line, when I feel sufficiently past it to the point that it can be summed up a bit better.
Suffice it to say that I’m losing an important part of my life soon. Maybe not entirely, as we’ve agreed to keep things amicable and friendly and stay in touch. But, these things tend to sting a bit at first. And one can never predict if/when things will ultimately wane out.
Things go unsaid far too long in my life. With all my incessant yammering, I’ve learned I still leave many important things in the realm of speculation and misunderstanding. It’s a two-way street, like most things, and I’m not about to become a self-loathing “woe is me” asshole. Nor am I feeling that way now. Mostly contemplative. And, sure, a bit remorseful. Gotta work on Damian and Lucifera some day. But, I still firmly believe in the “everything happens for a reason” mantra. Whatever that reason ultimately reveals itself to be, I’ll be a stronger and wiser person for it. As I’ve said, I’ve already learned quite a lot in the short period that I’ve been faced with this.
I’m trying now to put my head down and pound away at the pile of unfinished projects that loom over me. Work is getting underway on another No Talent production. A full-length film this time. One that’s pretty close to home, figuratively speaking. I’m going to do what I can to make sure this one sees its way through to final production. We’re doing a casting call this weekend, which should be fun. I’m trying to also put some intimate pieces of myself into the work, insofar as writing little additions to the screenplay. There’s also the Story Addict project that’s finally underway, so I look forward to seeing where that will go.
I’m going to try and force myself to blog at least once a week – if only a few short sentences, and to move forward on getting myself “out there” professionally. Idle hands are the devil’s playground, but an idle life is emotional hell.
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