You can't get a Suntan on the moon, but I wouldn't mind a holiday there

The updates have been sparse, I know. There’s a lot of things I’d like to say, that I’d love to write about. Shit, there’s a lot I need to write about; many thoughts have gone through my head lately that require expulsion. But, I’ve been leaving that sort of writing to my private, personal journal. It’s nowhere online, it’s just a text document I’ve been writing in for some 9+ years now. It’s over 600 pages long now. I’ll publish it when I’m famous.

In short : I’ve been feeling good lately. Doing well. Feeling much better. My sex drive has returned to its former glory and I apologize for my coyness and vague details but.. I’ve been able to share that release with someone recently and while we’re not about to turn it into anything "meaningful" or long-term, we’re both very pleased with the current situation. At least, that what she says. The smile says it all I guess.

Fell asleep spooning last night. Got woken up as she was leaving the bed to sleep on the couch because apparently I make "smacking" noises with my mouth and she was having trouble sleeping under those conditions. I wonder if a Doctor could do anything to stop me from doing that. I don’t like having my sleep (esp. w/someone else) interrupted, nor do I like people feeling uncomfortable around me. Damn shame, she was warm. Breasts make the perfect hand-warmers.

Since I didn’t do a weekend update, here’s what I was looking like on Saturday night :

Pretty good look for me, I think. They said I was "barely goth enough" at the club and almost charged me extra to get in. Apparently my look was "too punk" from the neck down. Fuck ‘em.

Got a dentist appointment, which includes some teeth-pulling and serious deep cleaning next week on the 5th. I guess the appointment after that I’ll be getting the bottom row of my teeth completely overhauled (much like they did w/my top row), only this time the dentist will be doing it all in one appointment and in front of an audience of peer dentists that are curious to see this new technology he’s using to fix up my mouth. Going out to Colorado w/my sister to stay w/my mom for a few days during her cancer treatment, from the 15th thru the 18th I believe. After I finish my Vivid.com tour, I’ll be taking my first personal "pure leisure" vacation. Alone, it appears. I’m not sure where I’ll go, but I’ve got a few places in mind. Don’t have the time/money to leave the country, so it’ll probably be somewhere kinda close by. I just need to get the fuck out of this environment, take a few days off of life and just relax. Or try. Ignore the life I’ve been living, ignore work duties and missed opportunities.

I have no idea what this year will bring to me. I have no idea if it’ll get better, or worse. I’m still not sure how I’ll be feeling come next weekend, when the ex gets married. I’d like to say "ehh.. I’m over it" but that’s easier said now than it will be then. The future is always the great unknown, I know that much and I’m only bringing it up because life throws some serious fucking curveballs sometimes. To tell you more about where my head has been would ruin what I’ve got going on right now, so I’m staying intentionally vague and you’ll just have to wonder and hopefully think "Mitcz is doing what’s good for him right now, and that’s good".

Take care now..

EDIT :
Since it’s been awhile, I’m also going to do a quick "SONG OF THE WEEK" here.
Love & Rockets - Holiday on the Moon.
It’s a perfect song for my mood, very mellow and dreamy.

Get the Lyrics here
And/Or Download the track here.

Enjoy.

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